Snowball effect #IWSG

Since I totally forgot about today’s post until now and it has some relevance for me, I’m stealing Loni’s idea.

I posted previously about Crossfit. I try not to speak too much of it because I know the stigma it carries. And truthfully, from an outside observer before I started it looked like pure chaos.

I promise I’ll get to the writing part soon.

A few weeks ago there was a team workout and I got partnered up with two other women who had just started (I was not quite at my first month yet I think). They were friends who decided to do this together. Cool because my husband dragged me into this. So we’re getting set up and going since there’s different movements and it’s supposed to be one person working at a time so the other two can rest. About halfway through they’re not following the pattern anymore. Suddenly I find myself on my own for the rest of the workout because they decided I wasn’t moving fast enough for them (by the way, this is not normal behavior for people at my box – the others are very helpful and inclusive no matter their level).

I’m big and slow. I have a hard time doing stuff. I scale everything. Those simple facts began to snowball into directly negative thoughts (I can’t do this. I’ll never get anywhere. What was I thinking? Who am I kidding?) and it went beyond Crossfit. I began second guessing myself on everything, which is really bad at this time as I’m wrapping up book 2 and editing book 3. Had a panic attack about another team workout and had to sit that day out.

Lack of a decent night’s rest for who knows how long wasn’t helping either.

It became my turn at one of my critique groups and I prayed I could take people’s opinions without breaking down. I knew I had problems with the first chapter of book 3, but I couldn’t figure out what.

Managed to make it through that and start Camp NaNoWriMo (I use Camps for revisions and maybe some small side projects if I have time). I haven’t touched the first chapter yet since I decided to go through the rest of the book before I made an major changes. Need to see what I have because I know I set up a lot in the beginning that comes back.

I’m also torn a bit on a few things because readers vs critique partners again.

So I’m still on shaky ground with pretty much everything, but I’m trying to move forward.

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It’s all in the shoes

No, seriously. This post is going to be different so bear with me. It’s one of those “ah ha!” type of moments with a fair amount of head hitting the wall following.

About a month ago I was dragged pretty much kicking and screaming by my husband to join him in crossfit. I know I probably just lost a few people saying that word. Many, many tears have been shed in my frustration of being unable to keep up.

I still can’t, but I was also being held back by something: my shoes. I killed my rainbow colored sneakers (this is what happens when you let a then 3 year old pick the color) during the sheer amount of running (walking) this past Saturday and then the nail in the coffin was Monday’s workout. Tuesday I found myself researching shoes and asking horribly newbie questions of random strangers on the internet.

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Those funky rainbow colored shoes are lifestyle shoes – they are good for pretty much nothing. At least not anything that has some level of intensity to it. Actually, probably don’t even say the word exercise around them. The others are a cross training shoe.

The difference? I struggled so hard to get into a half-squat with the Sketchers. I stood in the store (very awkwardly) doing full squats in the Nike shoes without issue (except for hoping no one randomly came around the corner and saw me). I grip the floor solidly and the better side-to-side support is instantly noticeable. Now, they aren’t Metcon 3s, but they’re a good start. Trust me, I tried on the Metcon 3s and would love a pair, but that’s out of the budget right now. I’d like to try the Nano 7s, but I can’t find any in my size in the area. Are there other brands/models/etc? Yeah, but hang around on the subreddit a little bit and you’ll start getting the idea of what crossfit people go for.

Changing shoes also heavily reduced the knee and ankle pain I deal with on a regular basis. I could keep going, but this has probably already gotten boring. Needless to say, if issues with footwear ever comes up in my writing, I’ve probably already done a decent amount of research for it.

I held off on this post until after another workout where I could wear my new shoes and of course Thursday’s workout heavily featured some sort of squat in it. I still need to work on it, but now I can start tackling my personal limitations without having to fight my shoes as well. And while I’m still heavily scaled, I didn’t leave feeling completely frustrated and like I was wasting my time even trying.

Now to find some good everyday shoes to wear so I don’t kill these. The rainbow ones are completely gone – they actually hurt to wear. I’m keeping them around a little longer to possibly publicly shame them.

A belated thank you

A belated thank you to everyone who stopped by and said hi at Rediscovered Books this weekend. There are still signed copies of Twisted Magics on sale there. I also want to thank the folks at Rediscovered – they are the nicest, sweetest people who have a huge passion for books.

And my daughter might be mad at me for not bringing her back a book, but she would have been more annoyed at not getting to pick it out herself. I see another trip down there in the near future.

2017-03-09 10.27.24As for my delay with this post, things kind of went sideways recently. Earlier in the week my daughter’s preschool cancelled for the rest of the year without warning so I’ve been in a bit of a scramble to figure out what to do to fill that void. And I thought kindergarten registration this afternoon (yikes!) was going to be my weird point for the week.

Trying to figure out a new routine now, but still holding onto what we can.  I’m still staying on target for an early summer release for Shattered Illusions. Still trying to teach her the basics of archery. Thankfully she’s happy with just the block for now.

It’s been a long time since I taught archery – I think it’s as much of a reminder for me as it’s lessons for her. Haven’t broken my own bow out yet since I need to focus on her while we’re there.

Guess we’ll just have to roll with what we’ve been dealt and see where it takes us.

Revisiting old work #IWSG

March IWSG Day Question: Have you ever pulled out a really old story and reworked it? Did it work out?

Yes, and it was torture to some extent. I really liked the concept of the short story and wanted to rewrite it and see if I couldn’t do more with it. Since it’s a side project, I haven’t put too much effort beyond a full rewrite, showing it to a couple of critique groups, and some minor editing after that.

I think eventually it’ll work out. I have another short story that follows these characters that also needs a rewrite along with old notes I found for a third. So it’ll be fun to dabble with in between my major projects.

The hardest part was taking the original from third person present tense to first person past tense. I have a really hard time writing in third person for some reason. Either I want to tell everything or I withhold way more than I would in first person – there’s no in between. Eventually I broke down the original into something of an outline so I could keep the sequence of events roughly the same.

Me and outlines generally don’t play well together either, but for something short I can put up with it.

For now it’s tucked away to be poked and prodded another day. I’m working on the final edits for Shattered Illusions which of course takes priority. My deadlines are looming quickly and I haven’t gotten as much work done with it in the past week or so due to a change in my schedule and trying to catch up and finish my February writing challenge. And being sick. I didn’t know it you could get sick off of too much protein (also didn’t realize it was too much).

See, this is what happens when I try to be healthier about things.

Also getting nervous and excited for my event at Rediscovered Books on Saturday. I’ll be there from 11-1.

Habits

In going through the editing process, part of it is making sure my characters maintain their particular habits such as Silver toying with his braid. It’s something he does and doesn’t necessarily realize he’s doing it.

And then I start to laugh at one of my own: having my sunglasses on my head whenever I’m out. Either on my face or up on top of my head. I just grab them with my keys on my way out the door and don’t really ever think anything of it.

Until now of course.

What are some habits you have? Or habits of characters you like?

Fun side projects

A friend of mine posted in our local NaNo Facebook page a while ago about a letter writing challenge from another group. Now, I think the original challenge was to write a letter to someone every day in February. She proposed to use it as a writing challenge and write letters between characters (just with the individual, not trading to another writer).

My thought started out as a single character writing letters he would never deliver. Which then somehow warped into journal entries/letters after being reminded we were in February and this was happening. I finally managed to get caught up.

So I’m giving it a go of writing Silver’s journal. The project is becoming more involved than I initially figured, but it’ll be fun all the same. A few times he’s turned it into a letter format partway through and I like how it’s working out so far. For now I’m going to just play around since my main focus is getting Shattered Illusions finished. I’ll still aim for an entry a day for him for the month.

Busy time #IWSG

Oh gosh, I feel a little guilty taking time away from all the things I need to do to write this post. But first, some fun news: Rediscovered Books in downtown Boise is now carrying copies of Twisted Magics. I’m so thrilled to be working with them. I’ll also be doing an event there on March 4th from 11-1 so if you happen to be in the area, come on down and say hi!

I’ve still got some work to do for them before the event. I swear I’m trying! On top of that I’m working on the final edits for Shattered Illusions and gearing up for the run to put it all together and get it out. Still aiming for an early summer release.

Then there’s all the other normal stuff, but no one wants to hear about that. XD

This month’s IWSG question is a little ironic given that it has been something I’ve been thinking about over the last month or so: How has being a writer changed your experience as a reader?

I kind of have 2 modes: writing and editing. If I’m in editing mode, I’m being hyper-critical and I generally try not to read for fun (at least nothing large) because I’ll be picking it apart instead of enjoying the ride.

I think I also posted about this semi-recently in that I’ve found a difference in my beta readers. Some are just readers and tend to have different views on things than the people who I have who are say part of critique groups. Sometimes it’s polar opposites and it makes me wonder if I still get hung up anyway on things even outside of editing mode. It also makes me confused as to who to listen to.

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